Bumped into his frens a few days back and were told that their wedding will be held on 07-07-07 (soyunds James Bond kindda thingy)... So good... Envy them so much and yet dunno when our wedding will ever become a reality?
Maybe it will never come... Why do I say so? Always say 3 yrs, but every year also say the same things... How many more 3 years do I have to wait? I'm not getting younger and now I dread/fear the months and passing away... Every year I feel and fear that I will be disappointed yet again... Maybe I'm not worth the effort? So easy to say yet so difficult to fufill... He doesn't even plan to get married exactly when, we dun have any concrete plans at all. If this r/s is leading to nowhwere, maybe I should give up soon.
He loves to say we hold a void-deck wedding loh, then we dun need to spend so much and get married earlier. Haha...
Not funny at all. Each time he mentions it, it makes my blood boil and makes me feel worthless... You mean I'm worth so little to u? I'm not good enough and impt to you to let u give me the dream/proper wedding dinner? Maybe so... that's why he keeps talking abt void-deck wedding. If I'm really not worth it, pls let me go and dun hurt me anymore with this cruel joke which dashes all my hopes, dreams and faith in you...
Maybe my dream wedding date 19-09-2009 will never come true... I'm tired and sick of this cruel joke which might mean nothing to him but yet hurt me time and again, leaving me alone to lick my wounds...