HuBbY & WiFeY 4eVeR In LoVe

*the bride and groom's foreword *

Welcome to Bren and Jim bloggie!

Here's our love story that will not end with a full stop forever and ever....

aLL mY mOsT bEaUtIfUl DrEaMs AnD hOpEs HaVe YoU iN tHeM... SoMeHoW mAdE eVeN mOrE bEaUtIfUl iN yOuR hAnDs ThAn I eVeR tHoUgHt CoUlD bE... I gIvE mY hEaRt AnD lOvE tO yOu To Be HeLd AnD cHeRiShEd By YoU fOrEvEr...

Daisypath Anniversary Years Ticker

*the charming groom *

# Jimmy aka MadSuSu
# 29 years old

*he loves *

# wifey aka galgal
# fishing
# computer games
# animes/manga
# watching sports

*his wishlist *

:: sayang galgal ::
:: lose weight ::
:: earn enough ::
:: marry galgal ::

*the blushing bride *

# Bren aka blur-gal
# 25 yrs old

*she loves *

# hubby aka daddy
# reading
# singing
# cooking
# shopping

*her wishlist *

:: be good to hubby ::
:: slim down ::
:: get married & buy flat by 2009 ::

Monday, November 29, 2004
Silly Nonsense?

Kindda feeling a little down, chatting with Hubby on MSN. When I told him I was feeling down and thinking abt some stuff, he called me immediately. Really touched, but I didn't feel like talking abt it. So chose to blog instead.

Not too sure what's the prob too. I kindda feel depressed and pessimistic abt our future. Before he was back, I wish we had all the time together, made lotsa dreams and kept planning abt our future. I love him, I know I do... But somehow, now I kindda start wondering if its meant to be. I start worrying that we won't have enough money to buy our flat, that my mum will object to us, that his family will not be able to accept my past. He seems to take everything so easily, like there's nth to worry abt. I feel like I'm the only one worried and planning for our future. I feel so alone, so cold, so empty. I feel like crying my heart out, but yet act strong for him. So many times I have been hurt by others' comments, I should have been numb by now. but no, it still hurts. It still gets me worried.
I know I'm not the soft, gentle gal he might want, I know I'm fierce and rough. But that's the way I am and I won't be any happier if I changed. Isn't he supposed to love me the way I am? If that is so, why do ppl keep 'threatening' me? Saying if I'm not gentle to him, I'll scare him off or he'll leave me eventually? I act like I don't care, but I do. I'm afriad, but I pretend to be 'bo chup' in front of them. I really dunno, I'm losing faith and confidence in myself. I'm so lost...